Month 11: November
This month felt slower and more reflective—definitely a rollercoaster of emotions, but in a good way. I spent a lot of time thinking about what’s next for me and trying to figure out opportunities for the coming year.
At the start of the month, I found myself spending most of my time at home. The lack of transportation in Silla made it tricky to get to the city center, so I ended up focusing on small tasks for the organization and browsing for ideas about my future plans. It felt like one of those in-between periods where nothing big is happening, but you know something is about to shift.
During the month, I had to chance to spend my week with Amics intern from finland, Leevi. It was really fun and interesting to activities and re-discovering city with him. Hearing his observations about Spain as a Finnish person on daily life, youth work, politics, economics and hearing first hand examples was interesting to hear for me. On the other hand, sharing my experiences in Spain and comparing to each other between countries helped me to understand the differences and similarities better.
By the end of the month, though, things picked up. I visited my cousin in Germany and my brother in Poland, and even though they weren’t “home” visits, they felt just as comforting. Seeing my family in person after such a long time was like hitting pause on everything else. It wasn’t about doing anything special—just being together, catching up, and watching how their everyday lives flow. I loved getting lost in their routines and asking curious questions without feeling the need to adapt to their world.
On my way back to Spain, I had a surprise reunion with a friend from Poland last-minute Even though his schedule was packed, he made time to see me, and we crammed in a quick update session. It was such a warm, unexpected moment that reminded me how much I appreciate these connections.
This month also came with some goodbyes. One of my flatmates, Andreja, moved out. Even though I knew this was just for a year, saying goodbye hit me harder than I expected—similar to when Francesco left. Realizing that I don’t know when we’ll meet again made me appreciate our time together even more. Living with this group has been such a big part of my year, and it’s something I’ll carry with me for a long time. Anyways, I will talk more about this on my last blog..
As November wraps up and december is also finishing, I’m sitting in a bit of a grey zone, trying to figure out my next steps. Some decisions are out of my control, but I’m finding some calm in knowing what I want. Now, it’s just about figuring out how to get there.
